Intelli(Gent)le?



Should it be either intelligent or gentle? It hurts sometime to be gentle when you need to be tough in all sense and some other time intelligence is a curse, to spot out and analyse things which need not be dug deeper.

Yes, I'm like this by default and honestly I don't want to change much. I cry when I feel like, I laugh out loud when I'm high; I sing, I dance and I do things as my heart says ;) But one bad/good thing about me is that I can't show a smiling face and keep hatred deep within, if i have something in my mind, no matter it disturbs me or make me merry, I'll blurt out. There won't be any intelligence or gentleness, it might be as crude as that. I don't believe in 'strategical tactics' when it comes to relationships.

You may wonder, why I'm scribbling all these non sense. Simply put, this is the dilemma I've been going through for the last one month. I've to compromise on intelligence as well as gentleness just because of interference of some external forces (that's how I would call them, as they're just alien concepts for me). I have to smile at them, I have to talk to them diplomatically and alas, the end result is that I'm going to bed with a heavy heart and dysfunctional brain! Now it is high time, I'm getting over this temporary adjustment phase and back to being normal 'me'.

Comments

Rejil Krishnan said…
Ohhh ! ! ! What a dilemma ? :P
Go forward and rest the burden from your shoulders or head or wherever it is... speak out... :)
August 13, 2009 at 11:20 PM
Midhun Murali said…
@ Rejil

Wud love to do that, but u know how confident I am :P
August 13, 2009 at 11:23 PM
TedCode said…
Attain the nirvana of The Smiling Buddha!
August 14, 2009 at 1:24 AM
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